i haven't been blogging for some time already. it's almost been a week since i went here and that's quite surprising i think. some days i can just go and blog and blog and never stop.

but this week... stuff's happened. good stuff. bad stuff. same old. same old.

my results aint as good as i would have wanted them to be. i'm quite disappointed in myself because i studied hard. (3 weeks of holidays spent on that kind of nonsense is really no joke) it isn't even funny when i receive the paper and think that it's okay. because sometimes it isn't. i know i shouldn't be THAT disappointed, but when i think of the time i spent... grr.

sore throat has morphed into throat infection. so now i'm currently voiceless. it's hoarse and pains me everytime i open my mouth to say something. so i shall just whisper.  better to whisper and be heard slightly then to say something and be totally misunderstood. i've given up hoping that it'll be okay in a few days. am crushed that i can't go with Sonya to the CO concert to support Nette and Yue Yiao.

thing is, next week is yet another busy week. campfire week. i hope it goes smoothly. piano lesson on thursday even though it's the fifth week and technically means i don't have to go. break week but cos of piano exam... hate all those singing tests.

i don't want to be jack of all trades, but master of none.

my piano skills are medicore at best. don't say that because i'm doing grade 7 that doesn't hold.
my drumming is taking a backseat because of my piano exam.
my grades are not what i want them to be and not the best that i can achieve.
i constantly feel that i'm letting people down.

i'm not sure what exactly i am good at.

good at disappointing people? i hope not.

oh well. my throat hurts bad.  i need to go my strepsils.